Tiring days..!!

One busy day, while laying on bed at night after turmoil and all running from post to pole, I was feeling weak. I pondered, is this life, getting up early hurrying to get ready, reaching bus stop, office, again bus stop, marketing, home, study, dinner and then sleep and the repeating cycle. The pain in muscles of leg, hand, neck and back adding headaches to me. Is this what life should be?

Then one day just opposite happens all free I was for the whole day. Getting up late at 9, no bath, Facebook , Twitter, WhatsApp, chatting, then walk at evening, dinner and then to bed. To my surprise I was again, not happy!! I thought, I should be happy, but not, I was even more sad. Spending a day without challenge, task, without some growth seems suffocating.

This day spent without any challenge and hardship made me grateful to all the hectic, tough, toiling and tiring day to come. Attitude matters. I am ready for you the tough day, with all open arms.

Going to bed with pain and strains in nerves is WORTH..!!

19th July, 15'( ugliest day of my life),the day you passed away..

Everyone who has come here has to go, one day, some day, leaving all attachments, everything. You too went away, without giving us anytime, hastily. Yes, you were never slow, you were electric, always lively, always inspiring. Wherever you went, you created a life in moment, there was truly an aura in your personality, charge flew out of you.

"Keep Fit..Keep Fighting...Keep Smiling", beta( son ) you always repeated on phone. From whom I would seek those lessons and direction.
You were there in every low time with your counseling and words, specially during my stay at Kota, those frustrating days of preparations. The long phone calls we had would not be there anymore.

With time we would get strength and conviction to live, without you, as life has to go on. But these days and nights are fearful as if life has lost its motive and direction. We are moving like that conductor of bus, who is on journey everyday but has to go nowhere.

Though you are always  alive in our heart, our conscience, our thought, but life is never the same. Success and achievement in life to come are not going to that special without your presence and your long list of blessings. Especially, the birthday's to come would be missing your long and exaggerated blessings that you used to pour on phone calls. Same would be missed every new year, every Diwali, holi, every good and bad occasions.

Life has to go on, and we have to learn to walk without your support, your constant encouragement, your wishes. There were things to be shared, moments to be cherished, things to be learnt.